Category Archives: Fashion

Cherish those small freedoms and rock those BIG statement pieces!

What is freedom? How many of you are sitting at your laptops or scrolling on your smart phones and have no idea how free you really are? I will admit, I had no idea just how much freedom I had two years ago so dont take my question to be completely condescending, please. This morning I sat at looked back at a few of my older entries on this blog, and I couldn’t help but smile to myself at my total lack of self reflection on the subject

Now, don’t go thinking I’ve completely lost it, though I am totally close to the danger zone in that aspect. While my sanity is constantly in question my life is constantly about perspective these days. Yesterday I was standing in the kitchen making a salad, while chopping greens I started to feel strange, a combination of dizzy/woozy and slightly nausious. I closed my eyes momentairly and placed my hand on my forehead and saw a rainbow of purple shades. I made my way to the living room and sat forward on the couch with my head resting on my knees, my sister Tabetha recgonized my odd behavor and stange faces and questioned me about the pause in my salad making. She suggest I sit back on the couch and rest, the next memory I have I’m waking up on the couch sweaty with my hair in my face trying to catch my breath waking up from a seizure with my brother-in-law Tim ensuring I didn’t choke or hit my head on anything. 

This is the first time I’ve ever had an aura, hopefully I’ll continue to have auras. When people have auras they are different in each person with epilepsy, some people smell strange things, I’ve read articles about patients smelling bacon or flowers, I have a girlfriend Amber who sees yellow halos of light shortly around things before she has seizures, and auras aren’t always present before all seizures, so its kind of a guessing game. SURPRISE! Blah. At the time, and post-seizure I wasn’t particularly excited about it, Tabetha was ready to throw a party. Hopefully what this means is that maybe I’ll be able to have of a warning system and wont be falling out all over the floor and busting my ass and bonking my head and having more traumatic brain injuries ontop of being epileptic. Cool, I’ll take it.
Being epileptic has taught me that people are stupid. Two things you need to know, my brain might malfunction but I'm not retarded and I have an excuse for my brain damage WHATS YOURS?!

Being epileptic has taught me that people are stupid. Two things you need to know, my brain might malfunction but I’m not retarded and I have an excuse for my brain damage WHATS YOURS?! 😛 Don’t forget your sense of humor.

Baby steps to freedom or small freedoms. I’d love to not fall down and have bruises all over my body and my face, if I could get past that these seizures would be manageable, maybe I could go back to working regularly. I would cry tears of joy that could fill buckets if I could have a semi normal life again.
Man, Betsey is still a real insperation. Keep kicking ass!

Man, Betsey is still a real inspiration. Keep kicking ass!

I’ve been drafting patterns and getting back to my inner seamstress, keeping up with NY Fashion Week and really trying to remember who I was before the seizures invaded my life and tried to take over. I’m NOT letting them! I try to remember strong women like Betsey Johnson who inspired me to be a fashion designer when I was 5. I would watch E! before it became the huge network it is today, and they used to play fashion shows on saturday mornings, I’d wake up and before cartoons I’d watch the fashion shows on Fashion TV. The first time I ever saw a Betsey Johnson runway show is permanently etched in my brain, there were tall models strutting down the runway in GIANT jeweled gingham circle skirts with big stacked platforms and at the end of the show Betsey ran down the runway with her orange hair and did a cartwheel. She was a free spirit and at 5 years old in my PJs with my Barbies I wanted to be her when I grew up. Years ago when she was diagnosed with breast cancer, she said it was important to enjoy life more so I’m trying to take a page out of her book and not work myself into the ground while making my dreams happen. I can’t have an empire if I’m dead now can I?
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To Gain a Little Perspective.

I cant begin to explain the video blog above, fresh from the shower I felt compelled to “speak” to my friends and family and to give an update about where exactly life has taken me on this crazy convulsion filled journey. I know that there cant be rain clouds every day and fight to stay positive that life will settle and I will find peace. Please listen to my crazy ramblings and allow me to share with honesty the perspective I have on the world today.

Love you all, deeply, keep pushing forward and fight the good fight, I’m in your corner.

-B

But Man, Her head was good-er than the music, electro body known to blow fuses…….

Its been another whirlwind year.  And life keeps changing, just when I think I’ve got a path nailed down life turns dramatically in a new direction, heading down roads I never thought I’d travel down.

Still, Momma is a Rolling Stone, and I stay welcome to all the new adventures life seems to bring my way.

A few months ago I was traveling around the country, hawking my bosses clothing line at trade shows, looking for a new line of work, and hating the grind. Now I’m freelancing and picking up strange odd work wherever I can find it. But I’m not worried, life comes full circle, I’ve got plans, plans may take years but I’ve got nothing but time.

It’s not about “making a dollar out of fifteen cents,” but about making the resources I have work for me. I’ve started working on my business plan again, tweaking it and evolving it into a life path. The idea is to have a clothing store that marries street wear and high fashion, taking cues from contemporary art, hip-hop, and travel. I figure, I can’t expect people to help me with my dream if I havent communicated what the plan is. This blog is where I plan to keep publicly evolving the theme and style that will eventually be MY  store.

I find myself really passionate about the mixing of “new blood” and “old-blood” within the fashion industry. I love to watch new designers begin to evolve personal style sensibilities while filtering through the influence of designers, artists, and music that inspires them. I find myself forever saddened by the designers I admire that have passed, but keep looking to the new generation of designers to breathe life into an industry I have always loved.

At the end of the day, it’s the love I have for this wacky fashion industry that keeps me working to owning my own piece. It’s not just about having my own clothing store, its about expanding and bringing street art and culture with me. It’s about building MY brand, and parlaying that into my life’s work, and being proud of the contribution I’ve made, its another never ending journey. Momma really IS a Rolling Stone. And don’t you ever fucking forget it

Little details and smart design, my heart swoons.

This divine little vest comes from Yellowcake, who will soon be featured on the newest season of Project Runway. It’s sweet design with a classic eye for classic craftsmanship. Ontop of having a wise eye for design, 15% of all Yellowcake’s profit goes to non-profit organizations, fashion that gives back is always en vogue.

The price point on this delightful vest is beyond reasonable at $72.00. It also comes in eggplant, mustard, houndstooth(my fave in any fabrication), and ivory.

Get one for yourself, and pick up one for me too.

And dont think I’ve forgotten my fellow plus sized fashionistas! Monif C just

The Marilyn $215.

debuted her fall/winter 2010 collection, and I’m dazzled with all the new pieces hitting the shelves. I love Monif C for bringing the convertible dress to the plus sized woman, the brands claim to fame is a circle skirt with attached sashes that help transform the dress and offer endless styling options. They’ve now launched a new convertible dress, “The Marilyn” its sexy ruching makes the dress flattering on variety of shapes.

Nab one from Monif C. here.

I’m obsessed with origami, and these “Paper Crane” earrings from Melody Ehsani via Karmaloop are perfect any way you slice it. Dress them down with a wife beater, jeans and cardigan, or dress them up as the statement accessory paired with your little black dress. I particularly like the little etching details and lightweight design.

Check out the goods here.

Check back next week for more style picks!

All I want for Christmas is to close this deal…..

Its no secret that I’m not the biggest fan of the holidays, not that I’m a total grinch, but the holidays tend to be slightly uncomfortable for me, family thown all over the country, and with no particular traditions to speak of, usually, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Channuakah, Winter Solstice, and  Kwanzaa tend to be just another day on the calender for me. However, this year, my cousin Starr is making the trek to The ATL, to spend a little time with me over the holidays, and we shall smoke, and laugh and dance and have a little fun, away from LA. Oh yeah, I think we might be getting into a little trouble, family style. Call me crazy, but I can recall some of the most amazingly fun times with Starr, speeding like banditas down the 101, or the 405, passing a fat blunt back and fourth, hair floating around my face, singing at the top of my lungs while my feet hang out the window. Thats the life….

Crazy hair after the rain....

Crazy hair after the rain....

Now, my top pics for christmas!

Han Cholo Pyramid Ring

Han Cholo Pyramid Ring

Han Cholo Pyramid Ring

Han Cholo Pyramid Ring

Han Cholo Pyramid Ring

Han Cholo Pyramid Ring

Now, I’ve been following the Han Cholo line for sometime now, and let me tell you, this rock and roll jewelry line is quintesentially Los Angeles, when I think Han Cholo I think low riders, and getting tacos on Alvarado Street, I think a little piece from the Han Cholo line will help me remember home a little better……ok, so I’ll never forget home, who really needs an excuse for a little bling? Not I. HanCholo Ring, on sale at Zappos.com for $110

1 inch Anatometal Citrine Plugs....mmmmm

1 inch Anatometal Citrine Plugs....mmmmm

Now, I know stretched lobes arent exactly for everyone, but I truly love mine. When I was a smalle size, 5/8, I invested a few hundred dollars in the most beautiful pair of Citrine plugs, now that I’m at a larger size, and now that I plan on stopping the stretching journey here, I think I need another pair of Citrine plugs…..they’re oh so sexy, and all of my other piercings are adorned with the same fancy yellow stones. Anatometal Plugs@ BAF $400 for a pair, but dont forget the 20% off holiday sale.

My old blings...

My old blings...

Aww...cheekies...

Aww...cheekies...

Mmm.....Gold Supras....

Mmm.....Gold Supras....

Are we starting to notice a trend here? I cant help but love the shiny-est, most wonderful glittery gilded sneakers, and these Supras are no exception. Gold snakeskin, gold glittery vinyl, and metallic gold details, are you kidding? No, they’re just that stunning….Karmaloop has the gold sneaker love, and at only $80 bucks, thats a steal.

At the end of the day, I dont need gifts, after all, I’ve got a fantastic life, and fantastic people to fill it, and while ear bling would be nice, a little christmas cheer from friends and family is all I need. But I’d never turn down gifts, ha ha….

Also, I’m seinging out hand made cameo christmas cards this year, you know you want one, if you havent sent me your address just yet, please do, I’d love to send you a card. Bianca.l.ward@gmail.com

Lets Get Real, Buttface.

So, I’ve been up since 6:30 am, I have no fucking clue as to why I got up so early, however its now 9:08 am and I’m still kickin. In fact, I’ve got up, taken Manolo and the other dogs to the roof with Dale, had a smoke, checked my email, and watched 3 episodes of Rob & Big. Yep, that’s what I call a productive morning. I think up next for my big morning is another ciggy and a cup of coffee….errr…except I look like hell, maybe I should shower and whatnot….I don’t know, I think I look kind of rock-star.

Yep, I actually wear a blingfold to sleep....err...and for other things....

Yep, I actually wear a blingfold to sleep....err...and for other things....

Its 6am....blow me.

Its 6am....blow me.

So, its 6 days until I leave for Atlanta and I hate to say it, but so far I’ve been very disappointed that most of my friends have made little to no effort to spend quality time before I leave. Family included, thanks guys. I do have plans with friends and family towards the end of the week, and I will be heading out to Temecula to see Tab and my God-munchkins. If you don’t see me before I leave, its on you, I’ve got nothing but time but space is filling up quick. Assholes. And to the few friends who have been making plans to see me before I leave, I appreciate it, one love and such.

I also have to make time this week to get my oil changed, car washed, dog groomed, vagina waxed, and head to the DMV.

Also, being that it is November 4th, I do hope you will all take the time to go to the polls and fucking vote, if you don’t vote I don’t want to hear any pansy ass bitching, and while your there vote for Obama, don’t argue, just listen to the voice of reason. I voted absentee as I thought I’d already be in The ATL, I’ll be in the streets tonight partying it up when election results come in and Barack takes home the gold.

Barack Obama 2008

Barack Obama 2008

My pick for the day are these simply sexy, totally stunning suede Dolce Vita Cage Heels from Urban Outfitters. They come in a rich peacock blue-green and a sinister cranberry wine. At $148 dollars, these heels might be a bit of an investment for some, but if your ballin, grab a pair for me too.

Dolce Vita heels from Urban

Dolce Vita heels from Urban

And lastly a little John Leguizamo to make your Tuesday a little brighter 🙂